My somewhat deconversion

[Welsh cake]

Hello, I'm not sure if I'm an atheist yet

There's a simple test: Do you believe in a god or gods?

If you answer "yes" you're a theist. If you answer "no" you're an atheist. If you answer "define god" you're an ignostic. If you answer "I don't care" you're an apatheist.

If you cannot answer the question at all, then you're simply indeterminate about your beliefs and there's no shame in that.

I don't find atheism very appealing.

Obviously. Atheism is the lack of belief of deities or rejection thereof. Its just a response to theistic claims. Atheism technically doesn't even qualify as an "ism", but that tells you nothing about what else you do believe in.

Thanks everyone. I feel like I'm in a theism recovery 12 step program now.

There's only one step - simply don't believe in god or gods anymore.