Let's Start Over, I'm Blackrook and I'm Here to Get Some Answers to Important Questions

[Danmark]

My life has basically been one shitty experience after another, ad infinitum.

If I thought this life was all there is I seriously could not stand being alive.

The only thing that keeps me going, the ONLY THING, is believing that at some point something really good is going to happen to me.

I've given up on something good happening to me in this life, so all I have left is the life in the hereafter.

So if I was an atheist, I would probably kill myself so my wife could get the life insurance money.

I am being totally serious here.

Have you talked to a doctor? Many find relief with antidepressants. But first, how are you sleeping? Proper diet, exercise, and sleep can cure problem without drugs. One of the problems some Christians have is they expect supernatural solutions to their problems. They expect prayer to help. Waiting for death and a life hereafter is inherently depressing because it is based on future thinking and on false belief.

Personally, I've found the world and the wonder of nature more exciting and wondrous when I replaced 'god made it' with accepting the wonder of it all as a natural phenomenon.

Unless you are under 30 years of age [and probably much older] you are simply too young to consider suicide. If you are older, prob'ly much older, and you are getting proper diet, exercise and sleep and have consulted a physician and still think life is not worth living, then maybe you are right. Maybe you have nothing to offer anyone including yourself. If that is the case and you have really thought it out, then go ahead, kill yourself. You won't be missed. You're of no use to anyone. Why not end it?

Just because others who have painful diseases, and great struggles and have gutted it out and made use of their lives, helping others instead of wallowing in self pity does not mean you can. Since there is no such thing as the soul, you will simply cease to exist. No problem. No pain. No hell.

Either find a way to be of some use to someone, to help others, or go ahead. you will be miserable. If that is the case, good-bye.