Now you've shifted position from assertions of belief to protestations of injured faith. I do wish you would pick which arena in which to enter battle and then stick to the decision. As to your final point, I wouldn't presume to say that you have given up your analytical tools; merely that you are very and carefully selective about when you apply them.
At the age of five, Skagra decided emphatically that God did not exist. This revelation tends to make most people in the universe who have it react in one of two ways - with relief or with despair. Only Skagra responded to it by thinking, 'Wait a second. That means there's a situation vacant.'