Transexuals

[TaraJo]

Oh no, this thread is golden if you've got some thick skin. Do eet!

Plenty thick. You don't grown up in boy-sports without thick skin; especially when you're gender variant.

But no, it's a troll :3 It's okay though, since apparently he hasn't been banned 0.o

Wouldn't be the first time I dealt with a hater-troll. Wouldn't be the first time I trolled him back, either.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M0RKjveLYZI

(yes, that's me calling him)

EDIT: Ok, yeah, I'm reading and the guy's an asshole. He knows nothing bu thinks he knows everything (reminds me of Rush Limbaugh).

Here's the story I went with. I spent most my life trying to be the man everyone expected me to be. Thing was, from my teen years on, I knew there was something wrong, I knew I didn't fit in, but there was always something just outside my grasp that I couldn't quite 'get.' As a result, I spent middle and high school as a loner. Not just a loner, but an angry, aggressive loner and that made me dangerous.

After I got out of school and got my own place, I thought maybe I was gay. I found a local GLBT center and tried to put myself in the gay community. I even dated a guy for a while. Know what? A much as I felt more comfortable in queer-world, dating guys as a guy just felt wrong. Here's a pic of me from back then:


Didn't take, though, so I tried to integrate myself with mainstream society as me as a regular ol' guy. Put me in the same situation I was in as a teen, though: an angry loner. I couldn't manage to keep a job for longer than a few months and I could never seem to make friends very well. I had romantic relationships here and there, and tried to derive some happiness from the idea of the good ol' American family. Problem was, even my ex wife knew there was something 'different' about me and our relationship didn't work.

A couple of years after that relationship soured up, I read an article that told me what effect estrogen can have on a male body. That's what got my full attention. I was still depressed and strongly considering suicide and just one thing stopped me: I wanted to be a girl, I knew how to do it and I wanted to do it before I died. So, I made a few phone calls and got myself going and things finally started to change.

When I started finding a transsexual community out there, I finally found a group where I could really feel like I fit in. I had never felt that before in my life. They helped me and guided me and provided support as I needed it. It was actually a stark contrast from what the rest of society did to me. Upon starting on estrogen, the most wonderful thing happened: I felt happy. I mean, I had never felt this kind of pure happiness before; the kind that comes from inside yourself. It's amazing! It made the rest of the world easier to deal with..... and I needed that emotional shift, because the rest of the world suddenly turned much more hostile when I came out.

I used to be able to find jobs with ease, generally within a week or two I could at least get a fast food job. Suddenly, even McDonalds didn't want to touch me. My parents had always stood with me no matter how scary I got; now they suddenly wanted to have nothing to do with me. Me ex always told me she wanted to make sure I stayed in the children's lives was suddenly taking steps to prevent me from seeing them. Even homeless shelters became unmanageable in that sleeping in a poorly supervised room filled with unstable men was scary (and finding any other social assistance, either from the private or public sector, is often depndant on staying at a homeless shelter).

And you know what? In spite of these difficulties, no matter what else I have to go through, I wouldn't dream of going back. Now I'm a student who's probably going to be starting a nursing program soon, I have an amazing relationship with the most wonderful person, I've found a community that has been able to help me and provide support (both emotional and financial) to the point that I can mostly take care of myself. In short, I have more stability than I ever have in my life and I never would have been able to get this stability had I not transitioned. My only regret is that I didn't get started sooner as I might have been able to avoid some of the problems that I'm still struggling with.

So if someone tells me I would be better off as I was before, I always kinda laugh inside. Because if they really knew who I was before, if they understood just how angry and violent I was, they wouldn't dream of telling me to go back to being 'him.' If OP here is genuinely scared of violence against him, detransition would be the last thing he would want out of me.