Quote:Religion is not what I want. It's a heavy burden on my back. I don't like the concept of hell, I don't like the concept of slavery to any deity.
I don't like those things, either.
What you should ask yourself is, why are you jumping through so many hoops for it? Why defend something when it is both something you wish was not true and something which is almost certainly not true, regardless of your wishes? You justify your beliefs in precisely the same ways as adherents to many other religions, and there is nothing concrete which makes a single one of them any more likely to be true compared to any other.
If there is a god, or gods, in this universe, chances are extremely high that none of them that we worship are the correct ones. Therefore, the fates of everyone here are going to be the same, no matter what. Might as well let all that shit go and enjoy a life of freedom.