RE: Should pedophilia be legal?
March 20, 2013 at 6:53 pm
(This post was last modified: March 20, 2013 at 6:56 pm by Creed of Heresy.)
I was gonna do more with that post, I just realized. Not much, though. I was just going to say: I am proof that pedophilia is incredibly damaging. My laundry list of psychological issues is tremendous, and that I manage to exhibit some form of normality, however marginal, is due to little more than lucky circumstance; lucky that one of the social workers worked out what had been happening to me, lucky that he'd cared enough to have me taken into a home that provided me with psychological therapy, lucky that I overdosed a year and a half later, lucky that the next family to adopt me paid for my rehabilitation, lucky that they also sent me to hospitalized psychological care, lucky that they actually put a lot of time and effort into trying to stabilize me, and lucky that it all worked, at least enough. Difference is I'm not completely dysfunctional, though I suspect even with lifelong therapy [as if I could afford that; this is the US, after all, we love the idea of leaving those stricken by ill-fate and poor circumstance to flop around helplessly in the quicksand] I'll probably always be considered abnormal, weird, and in all likelihood uncomfortable to be around.
I completely lack any semblance of self-esteem, ego, or confidence. I don't mean I have low self-esteem; I just outright lack it. I have almost zero self-respect; my achievements, minimal as they are, ring rather hollow to me. Nothing I do brings me any real measure of satisfaction. Half the time when I am having sex, I find I am incapable of having an orgasm due to performance anxiety that twice has actually escalated into a full-blown panic attack. Oh yeah, I'm definitely the most desirable lover out there; midway through coitus I start spasming violently, I pull back...and start hyperventilating and speaking incoherently for ten minutes until I calm down. Hard to imagine why the ladies don't exactly come flocking to me, huh? Attach a heavy lack of confidence that leaves me completely incapable of ever moving past the talking stage with most women, leaves me feeling awkward [and it shows] in social situations, and overall works against me in a great many ways in general. My self-confidence is not something shallow either; I've had plenty of girls tell me I'm cute, or at least they have commented as such to others. Meaning I am, PHYSICALLY at least, pleasing to the eye, since this seems to be a fairly recurring thing. Yet often are the times a conversation with a girl will peter out and I will resume doing what I was doing, a friend will come over, looking utterly baffled, and ask "dude...what the fuck? She was all over you, man, why didn't you go for it?" I just sit and think and to me it never seemed that way. A few days later, however, I'll realize that was the case. But something in my mind at the time was muting it. Like something was silently telling me that there was no way in hell that was what it was about.
This is something I deal with every single day. No amount of medication or therapy is going to return my confidence or self-respect to me. None that I can ever hope to afford.
But hey. 15 years ago the ADA determined, through an erroneous study, that sex with a minor? Totally OK. No problems there.
*sighs*
You know, people, when I read threads like this, I die a little more inside, you know that? The fact that there are human beings out there who don't think that having non-consensual sex with a minor is bad, and who publicly state this as if it's fact? Or use it to compare things to fit with their own narrow world-view, like Closetman Selfhate McHomophobe John V [pedophilia and gay sex; they're comparably evil? You stupid fucking prick, I ever meet you I'm going to show you what sodomy really is with my size 15 combat boot, that's a fucking promise, and let's see Jesus or Skygod/Yahweh fucking stop me, and what's more you'll probably love it. Your hatred of homosexuals is betraying itself as the true self-hatred that it actually exists as, so you might wanna stop before you offend your non-existent deity or some bullshit]? Or that there are individuals out there who go "I don't support it, but we should legalize it?" It fucking kills me a little more, and I don't need any help with that, ok?
That. Said.
To me the whole thing between "pedophilia" and "child sexual abuse" doesn't really distinguish as different. I really don't care if pedophilia is not the act but rather just the 'thoughts'; the fact you're having thoughts about having sex with children already classifies you as an abhorrent disgusting sack of shit to me, and anyone really wants to argue that point, then roll up your sleeves cuz it's going to get really fucking bloody really fucking quick.
Oh, I'm sorry, does that make me sound mean? Am I big ol' meanie-pants irrationalist because I think people who harbor sexual thoughts about children are sick fucks who should be institutionalized like any other criminally-insane individual? Is it because I'm arguing that because nobody is physically harmed directly by the act of fapping to videos of children being viciously anally raped by their fathers or uncles or just random strangers, it shouldn't be considered illegal? Fuck you, I'mma do it anyway, and until you've stepped in my shoes you have no place to judge my opinion.
*deeeeeeep...breath*
Ok. I'm calm, now. This topic always fills me with an indescribable feeling. It's somewhere between indignation, fury, anguish, vindication, and humiliation and I'm not sure where exactly it precisely lies. Maybe in all of them.
All I can say is, if you don't support pedophilia then don't fucking say stupid shit like "it should be legal durrrrhhhhh" because all that does is makes people want to castrate you with a blunt ice skate, ok? Most of all me.
In the sense of litigation...yeah, I get you. But in the sense of people openly announcing or it being known that they are pedophiles? It should earn you an immediate spot in a mental clinic. Permanently, or at least until those thoughts cease entirely with no chance of recurrence.
I completely lack any semblance of self-esteem, ego, or confidence. I don't mean I have low self-esteem; I just outright lack it. I have almost zero self-respect; my achievements, minimal as they are, ring rather hollow to me. Nothing I do brings me any real measure of satisfaction. Half the time when I am having sex, I find I am incapable of having an orgasm due to performance anxiety that twice has actually escalated into a full-blown panic attack. Oh yeah, I'm definitely the most desirable lover out there; midway through coitus I start spasming violently, I pull back...and start hyperventilating and speaking incoherently for ten minutes until I calm down. Hard to imagine why the ladies don't exactly come flocking to me, huh? Attach a heavy lack of confidence that leaves me completely incapable of ever moving past the talking stage with most women, leaves me feeling awkward [and it shows] in social situations, and overall works against me in a great many ways in general. My self-confidence is not something shallow either; I've had plenty of girls tell me I'm cute, or at least they have commented as such to others. Meaning I am, PHYSICALLY at least, pleasing to the eye, since this seems to be a fairly recurring thing. Yet often are the times a conversation with a girl will peter out and I will resume doing what I was doing, a friend will come over, looking utterly baffled, and ask "dude...what the fuck? She was all over you, man, why didn't you go for it?" I just sit and think and to me it never seemed that way. A few days later, however, I'll realize that was the case. But something in my mind at the time was muting it. Like something was silently telling me that there was no way in hell that was what it was about.
This is something I deal with every single day. No amount of medication or therapy is going to return my confidence or self-respect to me. None that I can ever hope to afford.
But hey. 15 years ago the ADA determined, through an erroneous study, that sex with a minor? Totally OK. No problems there.
*sighs*
You know, people, when I read threads like this, I die a little more inside, you know that? The fact that there are human beings out there who don't think that having non-consensual sex with a minor is bad, and who publicly state this as if it's fact? Or use it to compare things to fit with their own narrow world-view, like Closetman Selfhate McHomophobe John V [pedophilia and gay sex; they're comparably evil? You stupid fucking prick, I ever meet you I'm going to show you what sodomy really is with my size 15 combat boot, that's a fucking promise, and let's see Jesus or Skygod/Yahweh fucking stop me, and what's more you'll probably love it. Your hatred of homosexuals is betraying itself as the true self-hatred that it actually exists as, so you might wanna stop before you offend your non-existent deity or some bullshit]? Or that there are individuals out there who go "I don't support it, but we should legalize it?" It fucking kills me a little more, and I don't need any help with that, ok?
That. Said.
To me the whole thing between "pedophilia" and "child sexual abuse" doesn't really distinguish as different. I really don't care if pedophilia is not the act but rather just the 'thoughts'; the fact you're having thoughts about having sex with children already classifies you as an abhorrent disgusting sack of shit to me, and anyone really wants to argue that point, then roll up your sleeves cuz it's going to get really fucking bloody really fucking quick.
Oh, I'm sorry, does that make me sound mean? Am I big ol' meanie-pants irrationalist because I think people who harbor sexual thoughts about children are sick fucks who should be institutionalized like any other criminally-insane individual? Is it because I'm arguing that because nobody is physically harmed directly by the act of fapping to videos of children being viciously anally raped by their fathers or uncles or just random strangers, it shouldn't be considered illegal? Fuck you, I'mma do it anyway, and until you've stepped in my shoes you have no place to judge my opinion.
*deeeeeeep...breath*
Ok. I'm calm, now. This topic always fills me with an indescribable feeling. It's somewhere between indignation, fury, anguish, vindication, and humiliation and I'm not sure where exactly it precisely lies. Maybe in all of them.
All I can say is, if you don't support pedophilia then don't fucking say stupid shit like "it should be legal durrrrhhhhh" because all that does is makes people want to castrate you with a blunt ice skate, ok? Most of all me.
(March 2, 2013 at 10:54 am)The Magic Pudding Wrote: I don't think a sexual attraction to children should be illegal.
How would that work?
Acting on it to the detriment of children, that's another thing.
In the sense of litigation...yeah, I get you. But in the sense of people openly announcing or it being known that they are pedophiles? It should earn you an immediate spot in a mental clinic. Permanently, or at least until those thoughts cease entirely with no chance of recurrence.
