Deconversion process help me

[Rahul]

As horrible as it may sound, you will probably have to get use to flashbacks in which you suddently feel the fear of hell again. You will unfortunatly have to find a way to deal with it.

Well he may. I've been a self-admitted atheist for at least 8 years and I've never had a flashback about hell.

I fear hell on earth like going to jail for the rest of my life (even though I've never been arrested and don't really do anything much illegal that would even cause a week long jail term if that). Those things, the things that could happen in this life, scare the crap out of me. The afterlife?

Not so much. The afterlife, my death, I see as inevitable, a part of life, not something to be avoided but to be carefully planned as well as possible, and possibily exciting. Not the act of dieing itself but what happens afterwards.

I don't fear much of anything that could possibly happen after I die. Most likely, I just cease to exist. But just maybe, there's something else there.

But hell? Pbhtt. Neh. It's either going to be exciting or just nothing at all. Most likely it'll be just as interesting as the year before I was born. Of which to me, well there was no me. It was less than nothing. I wasn't even there to experience nothing.