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@JesusHCrist - I know that what you are saying is completely correct and true - I dont argue with that at all, I am in early days in my de-conversion so I still go through rough spots.
@Pineapple - You are again spot on - For your age I would say you were extremely intelligent and know your standpoint which encourages me more. I am inquisitive, Everyone has seen my Genesis document and when I get time I will do it for every book in the bible.
@GodsChild - You said to stop relying on people for my answers, Why shouldn't I? I have prayed to God and he left me to feel the pain of this for months so obviously if he loved me in any way shape or form he would have given me a clear sign! One that is 'Beyond Reasonable Doubt'. Look people can say up and down that the Blasphemy is 'Unbelief'
Lets face it though Jesus said 'He who speaks a word against the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven' - He didn't say 'He who dies in unbelief' he said 'Speaks a WORD' and that's what pisses me off as may Christians have managed to bend that literal phrase to mean something else when it is clear cut!
@Everyone - I know deep down the bible is bull shit I have got 148 problems with Genesis and although some are really hard on the book its still scruitny that the Bible should beable to take like a breeze. Its just sometimes you do get some doubts that maybe I am still doomed. It does encourage me though to know that many people have committed this sin so at least I wont be in hell all by myself if the said place does exist.
Part of me thinks its funny as if God loves me that much sending me to hell will be satisfying for me as It will show quite plainly that he fucked up, I asked God for a visible sign and havent recieved one. If God existed like @Pineapple said then he cannot let me live with Uncertainty and fear. God would also have known the only way for me to leave this fear is by dis-belief. So it would appear either God does not care or that he does not exist.
In the last day I do have one card I *WILL* use! And I *WILL* say that to God that all my Athiesm is down to him as he was not there when I needed him most! Just like he wasent there for his own son!
@JesusHCrist - I know that what you are saying is completely correct and true - I dont argue with that at all, I am in early days in my de-conversion so I still go through rough spots.
@Pineapple - You are again spot on - For your age I would say you were extremely intelligent and know your standpoint which encourages me more. I am inquisitive, Everyone has seen my Genesis document and when I get time I will do it for every book in the bible.
@GodsChild - You said to stop relying on people for my answers, Why shouldn't I? I have prayed to God and he left me to feel the pain of this for months so obviously if he loved me in any way shape or form he would have given me a clear sign! One that is 'Beyond Reasonable Doubt'. Look people can say up and down that the Blasphemy is 'Unbelief'
Lets face it though Jesus said 'He who speaks a word against the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven' - He didn't say 'He who dies in unbelief' he said 'Speaks a WORD' and that's what pisses me off as may Christians have managed to bend that literal phrase to mean something else when it is clear cut!
@Everyone - I know deep down the bible is bull shit I have got 148 problems with Genesis and although some are really hard on the book its still scruitny that the Bible should beable to take like a breeze. Its just sometimes you do get some doubts that maybe I am still doomed. It does encourage me though to know that many people have committed this sin so at least I wont be in hell all by myself if the said place does exist.
Part of me thinks its funny as if God loves me that much sending me to hell will be satisfying for me as It will show quite plainly that he fucked up, I asked God for a visible sign and havent recieved one. If God existed like @Pineapple said then he cannot let me live with Uncertainty and fear. God would also have known the only way for me to leave this fear is by dis-belief. So it would appear either God does not care or that he does not exist.
In the last day I do have one card I *WILL* use! And I *WILL* say that to God that all my Athiesm is down to him as he was not there when I needed him most! Just like he wasent there for his own son!
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