it comes and goes for me. Sometimes I miss the ignorance of having a supreme being provide for my every need but mostly I experience great fear in dying and ceasing to exist-which is quite funny because thats when ill care the least. It shows me how desparate we are for eternal life. its easier sometimes than others for me to come to terms with things being the way they are than to live a lie hoping for something that will never come. but I play drums in a christian praise and worship band and love the music and atmosphere but sometimes I feel like im in a prison when they pray and talk about God doing this or that. I did join as a xtian and fell from the christian belief after. regardless, I care about these people so I keep my beliefs to myself. some people need that hope or theyll have nothing to live for. so then is it really wrong? I dont think so unless they start pushing their beliefs on others or condemning those of different beliefs to hell. the people I play with arent that kind of 'christian' so until they ask me my thoughts on God I will keep my beliefs to myself. when that day comes, ill see if im still in the band, lol. if not then ill retract my previous statements.
rant over
anyhow I could use someone to talk to also sometimes and im available to talk anytime too
rant over
anyhow I could use someone to talk to also sometimes and im available to talk anytime too
