And Hells come back to haunt me

[Brakeman]

The reason you left had nothing to do with an open mind, you left because you did something that's not possible in Christianity, joining is not part of Christianity. God calls you and you must surrender yourself to that call, God invites you in, gives you the trust you need and makes you a part of His church. Anything like that happen.

GC

So you have to wait on god's call now do you? What's up with that whole "fishers of men" thing jesus was so keen on? Did he forget to tell them no cold calls? Did the original John 3:16 used to say "After I call you with my super woo woo magic psychic telephone, then you can be saved?

Basically the idea that someone that used to be a christian, but turned atheist is a big problem for you. That would require the overt admission that we don't hear the voice of jesus, even when we believe. It admits that our conversations and feelings during prayer might later be merely explained by emotions and an over-active imagination. Can't have that can we? No, it is much easier to simply play the "you were never a christian" card, so your secret stays nice and safe.

The bible does offer a test for true christians, but you're not about to go drinking poisons are you GC??