I poise a question.

[Owlix]

So I guess if I choose to or are compelled to believe in GC's God, I should thank Him. If I chose belief to reason, I would thank God for many things. I should thank Him I'm not dead, right? Or should I not, because that mean's I'm not yet eternally alive, for I have that mortal death still to contend with. I should also thank God that my father died when I was but 2 years or less. I should thank Him for a mother still, I suppose. I should thank this God that I believe in for making it through school, because apparently without my God there is no mind within me. My education is but a shell without His guidance and reliance. I should also not forget to thank God for getting my license, for without Him I am as nothing and clearly capable of exactly fuck all. Also I must thank God for letting my mother become addicted to meth, because without that, I would be a weak person and unable to deal with what God (life?) throws my way. And of course, there is naught but God to thank for the violently abusive boyfriend I found myself ensnared with for too many years. For without that encounter, and God by my side, I may have avoided a broken nose, countless black eyes and much else besides. But for it God has made me stronger.
(At what point do you give YOURSELF credit, instead of God?)


OR

Everything that happened to me was my own fault or simply just unavoidable without drastic consequences, and in both cases events that I broke from just as soon as I was able. I am ultimately responsible for my life, GC, not anyone or anything else. Least of all some higher being or power or God or gods.