Since the topic is shyness, I will reveal a few awkward behaviors of mine which are probably caused by my shyness ...
One of those things is that I feel more socially inhibited when I'm eating in front of other people, especially if someone is really close to my face when I'm eating. I try to chew in a way so that people are not able to see my jaws moving too much. What is funnier is that I used to carry a tissue in my hand, and whenever someone started speaking to me and/or stared at me while I was eating, I would gently put the tissue in front of my mouth in order to cover that area (and hoping that they would fucking look AWAY from me). Sometimes I would pretend like I'm just cleaning my mouth with tissue - lol. Sounds weird, but it also feels like the food doesn't digest properly enough or something when people are watching me.
About the staring, I don't like to stare into peoples' eyes too much. I usually look around the faces, but not in piercing manner or directly into their eyes. That feels uncomfortable to me, and I may just maintain eye contact for a few seconds, and then look away. Sometimes I might look back again, and then I look away ... look back ... look away ... look back ... look away again (and all of this happens unconsciously) ... although, somehow, I noticed that I'm able to maintain eye contact for longer if I have to sit with someone for an interview.
In my situation, although I didn't have that much nervousness, I rarely used to raise my hand in class. Starting from high school I don't even remember ever raising my hand to answer a question.
But teachers still liked me like that. I was always a good little boy.
One of those things is that I feel more socially inhibited when I'm eating in front of other people, especially if someone is really close to my face when I'm eating. I try to chew in a way so that people are not able to see my jaws moving too much. What is funnier is that I used to carry a tissue in my hand, and whenever someone started speaking to me and/or stared at me while I was eating, I would gently put the tissue in front of my mouth in order to cover that area (and hoping that they would fucking look AWAY from me). Sometimes I would pretend like I'm just cleaning my mouth with tissue - lol. Sounds weird, but it also feels like the food doesn't digest properly enough or something when people are watching me.
About the staring, I don't like to stare into peoples' eyes too much. I usually look around the faces, but not in piercing manner or directly into their eyes. That feels uncomfortable to me, and I may just maintain eye contact for a few seconds, and then look away. Sometimes I might look back again, and then I look away ... look back ... look away ... look back ... look away again (and all of this happens unconsciously) ... although, somehow, I noticed that I'm able to maintain eye contact for longer if I have to sit with someone for an interview.
(November 25, 2013 at 9:49 pm)whateverist Wrote: But when I was in school, answering a question before the class would make my chest tight and my mind fogged. There was a real feeling of uneasiness and panic about forgetting what I would say.
In my situation, although I didn't have that much nervousness, I rarely used to raise my hand in class. Starting from high school I don't even remember ever raising my hand to answer a question.
But teachers still liked me like that. I was always a good little boy.
