Why oh Why

[Chad32]

You know, I get the feeling that Yahweh has some deep mental problems. It isn't enough for him to create angels and such to worship him all the time. It isn't enough that a portion of the human race worships him, despite having no concrete evidence. He feels the need to hurt himself, if such a thing is even possible, just to allow himself to be around those who give their lives to him, and send the rest away. Either to be tortured, or just to be in a place completely isolated from him.

He needs some psychiatric evaluation, because the more I think about it the more I feel he is insane. There seems to be a good case of him being insane, evil, or both. This guy fits no definition I can think of when I try to think of someone I would respect or worship. Maybe fear, but I've been told that living in abject horror of what he might do next isn't the kind of "fear" the bible means when they say to fear him. I had nightmares about my father, but at least there was some limiting factor on what he was allowed to do to me. He is, of course, the best example I can think of when it comes to someone who had power over me and punished me for disobedience, and needed other people to assure me that he loved me because it wasn't evident in my interactions with him.

Of course you could say god isn't like my dad. Well if I can't find some common ground somewhere, and can't relate to anything Yahweh does, then I don't know how I'm supposed to interact with the thing.