Always been the same fear here really. I also bizarrely fear being "average" more than being an absolute failure.
After all, I think you (and others) learn more from outright failure than from merely being "average" and being "in the middle". That's the worst for me :S I adore excess. I'm "all or nothing". Although, this may perhaps coincidence in terms of my personality, with Bi-Polar that I may or may not have (it's borderline atm I only had one manic episode and no real big lows yet).
EvF
After all, I think you (and others) learn more from outright failure than from merely being "average" and being "in the middle". That's the worst for me :S I adore excess. I'm "all or nothing". Although, this may perhaps coincidence in terms of my personality, with Bi-Polar that I may or may not have (it's borderline atm I only had one manic episode and no real big lows yet).
EvF
