Mediocre

[Violet]

I'm not sure any of you are famous or wealthy. In the same I can't understand how people can live with being mediocre. Knowing that no one cares whether you live or die. The saddest part is knowing that you won't be remembered. I feel that if you know that you serve no basic purpose on this Earth than to waste space than maybe your life isn't worth living. Sorry if I offend anyone but my greatest fear is being amediocre person, someone without value.

Anyone can think whatever, and it doesn't change the facts. I can't stand being a mediocre (I'm taking this to mean "average", or "beneath average") person in most circumstances. I can't turn in "average" or "acceptable" work, because I am driven to being excellent.

I think my being mediocre at something I value myself in is bad... but it is not bad because society doesn't care... it's bad because I know I can do better and don't. If I am a mediocre metallurgist: I can happily live with that. If I am a mediocre restoration shaman (WoW), I feel bad, because I value my skill in healing.

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Look. It was not my intention to start an argument. We are people and we feel the need do so, it's perfectly human. All I wanted know is if you feel like your life is mediocre? Do not argue with me if at the end of the day you cannot say that you have accomplished all that you have wanted to in this life.

I do not feel like my life is mediocre. I feel I contribute, my contributions are appreciated, and people benefit from my contributions.

However, that doesn't stop me from hating certain aspects of my life, nor does my hating some things stop me from loving others. At the basis: we just live. However... I refuse to live broken... my tickets to a better life lost forever, and my formerly 'good' life a drowned carcass. I can't just live like 'everyone else'... that fundamentally goes against who I consider myself to be.