Whirlwind

[mchlbhm]

I'm not going to read this until you sort it out into proper paragraphs with at least one clear line between them. I really don't want a headache!

May I refer you to Eilonnwy's excellent netiquette guide about paragraphs. (I can't post links)

Thank you, I did read it and will heed that advice to the best of my abilities.

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Sounds bloody awful. Really does. I too was abused sexually but not by my parents but a very sexy baby sitter.
Anyway, what causes you to believe in a god and why do you fear of what others tell you? How far have you questioned your beliefs? Any doubts?
You don't have to worry about not living a happy life without faith/religion. You don't need religion to live life to the full. You don't need religion to enjoy every moment of your life. Religion is nothing more than silly fairytales.

I was a little kid. I trusted my mom. She taught me about god.

I questioned quite a bit. I could imagine life without religion. I sighed in relief when I started to disbelieve. Then I think about being dead wrong. Then I doubt my doubts. This goes in circles.

Fairytales... Once upon a time, I created a god. I chose to name him YHVH. He was easily angered, and held no qualms against killing his creation. He set up sick, twisted scenarios designed to "test" my faith. My logical side is trying to kill him. My love for *my* creation isn't letting me.

Sound about right?