Christian "purpose" and "meaning" in life.

[Lek]

He never spoke English words to me. Most of his communication has been through the scriptures.

So he's not a personal god at all to you, he doesn't have time to talk to you in your prayers? Isn't prayer supposed to be communication with god?
Do you otherwise have deep conversations with an unconnected phone? Doesn't it bother you that you never got confirmation that jesus has agreed that you are repentant enough to be worthy of his salvation?
Hell, when I get in a taxi, I won't close the door until I'm sure that the driver is in the front seat and verbally acknowledges me, yet you are so flippant with your eternal life or damnation that you don't even expect a confirmation that you and your priests or whatever have the story correct and have properly complied with the rules god sent unverifiable men thousands of years ago.

Faith does equal gullibility..

The bible is God's word speaking to me. If I believe what Jesus said as recorded in the bible I have already received confirmation. I don't need him to verbally confirm that I'm saved. If you don't believe in him that's you're choice, but you don't need to tell him what he should be and how he should act.