I've Decided

[Eye of God]

I can't believe I was wrong again.
My faith has been shaken to the core. I have never read such compelling ideas. Several of you are very insightful and have made me think things I have never thought before.

I keep reading all over these forums and everywhere my arguments are destroyed.

I think its time for me to take a serious look at atheism but I don't know how to exist without God. How do you do it? How do you live without any light in your life? It scares me to think that maybe there isn't any light and we're all just aimlessly wandering.

If Satan is real, he has had such a victory over me. On the other hand, if he's not real than what can I count on? What is real? If my Lord and savior is not as real as I believe him to be, than who is??

What's the meaning in all of this?!
It's like everything I know has been shaken to its foundations and I have no walls around me.
Praying doesn't even seem to help when one has these sort of doubts because I keep thinking that Im praying to no one.

Maybe I should call Pastor Ryan. He's always been a good guide in my life.

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I've decided to just go ahead and embrace atheism.