RE: Am I justified?
June 27, 2014 at 3:49 am
(This post was last modified: June 27, 2014 at 3:56 am by kjgdkjsgdskjdgksa.)
A little history:
When I was 16 years old I knew I was gay. I thought that I could trust my sister whom I was close to, but was I wrong. She end up telling our mother about me being gay. Not sure how long she knew, but when she was taking us to our job, she asked me about this and I told her I was. My mother decided it was best to tell my father whom was already a mad and angry man. She knew how he hated everything that did not agree with him or that looked at him in a wrong way, yet she still told him. I was woken up the next morning and I was told that he does not want a "f*g" living in his home, so I was kicked out. He later blamed god for me being gay. I ended up moving in with my real mother for about a month. We got into an argument and she pack me up and moved me in with her foster parents. The foster father molested her, but when was admitted to me by his wife, she claimed he ask for forgiveness. After a year I moved a few times and life started to get better. I later forgave my father, but then ditch my whole family over there religious views and putting their faith before there own son. After my grandmas passed away in 2010, I felt very unwelcomed at the family gatherings. My family has a bad habit of telling you about their faith even when you do not wish to listen to it. They start off by saying "You may not believe this or want to hear this, but" and I just had all I wanted to take from that.
So while it may be a facebook post of someones views, I just feel like it is always in my face. So right now I am just really at my wits ends. Maybe I do allow these things to get the best of me, but I just need a forever break from these people. So while I do not hate his family at all, I do find it hard to adjust to seeing their facebook post and when visiting feeling uncomfortable about them praying before eating, I mean eat the damn food already, it is getting cold.
I just feel I have been push away to the point of being bitter about religion all together.
When I was 16 years old I knew I was gay. I thought that I could trust my sister whom I was close to, but was I wrong. She end up telling our mother about me being gay. Not sure how long she knew, but when she was taking us to our job, she asked me about this and I told her I was. My mother decided it was best to tell my father whom was already a mad and angry man. She knew how he hated everything that did not agree with him or that looked at him in a wrong way, yet she still told him. I was woken up the next morning and I was told that he does not want a "f*g" living in his home, so I was kicked out. He later blamed god for me being gay. I ended up moving in with my real mother for about a month. We got into an argument and she pack me up and moved me in with her foster parents. The foster father molested her, but when was admitted to me by his wife, she claimed he ask for forgiveness. After a year I moved a few times and life started to get better. I later forgave my father, but then ditch my whole family over there religious views and putting their faith before there own son. After my grandmas passed away in 2010, I felt very unwelcomed at the family gatherings. My family has a bad habit of telling you about their faith even when you do not wish to listen to it. They start off by saying "You may not believe this or want to hear this, but" and I just had all I wanted to take from that.
So while it may be a facebook post of someones views, I just feel like it is always in my face. So right now I am just really at my wits ends. Maybe I do allow these things to get the best of me, but I just need a forever break from these people. So while I do not hate his family at all, I do find it hard to adjust to seeing their facebook post and when visiting feeling uncomfortable about them praying before eating, I mean eat the damn food already, it is getting cold.
I just feel I have been push away to the point of being bitter about religion all together.
