And here you are again. Welcome once more. ---- It sounds to me though rather like you are rejecting a particular religious view, rather than not believing in god. Or to put it another way, had the previous pastor stayed, would you still believe in god? What you believe is up to you. But my question is why?
If there is a god, I want to believe that there is a god. If there is not a god, I want to believe that there is no god.