Hormones and the mental health of crazy people

[Violet]

I doubt it's hormones, she just doesn't wana say it. It's probably amphetamines for ADHD.

* Violet snorts.

If there's any drug I'm interested in using, it's molly... and that's mostly to see if I can simulate the effects of self-worth and contentment in myself through a hormone (seratonin). When I'm confident, it's like having cheat codes to the universe. Testosterone, the hormone I'm currently on, annihilates my confidence.

One piece of advice to OP, if you want to experience things far worst than anything you could imagine, keep increasing your dose without your doctor's approval.

I've never experienced things worse than I could "imagine". The only way that could happen is if a future daughter of mine is taken forcibly from me at the age of 3, raped brutally, and I find her broken corpse after two days without drinking, eating, or sleeping... her stringy intestinal bits looping over the side of an alley trash bin.

There is nothing that can be physically done to me that is "worse" than what I can hallucinate. Unfortunately... nothing is "better" than it, either.

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Sorry, Alice, you are not Cray, not by any of my standards of cray.

Because I'm usually cognizant of my delusions, I haven't blacked out in a few weeks, I'm usually good at distinguishing internal from external hallucinations, and I rarely experience omissions (though overwrites can be an irritation... every bug may as well be a swarm)... I'm not crazy to you?

Just because I'm not about to don a mop bucket to shlarp the lymphnoodles with my spaghetti stick... doesn't mean I'm not a potential danger to myself and others.