Trials

[Violet]

I know the irony as many of you will see it, because so many of you only heard half of my offer. The half that pertained to you receiving cancer. When in reality I said that we all must be willing to pray whatever it takes, and what good would it be for me to tell you all to pray this and for me not to pray this for myself.. So I'd did. Now who says God does not answer prayer.
God is good, amen!

Well, good luck with that

Back to the reason it posted this. Trials. Yes trials can be devastating hardship. But, a trial like this one can also take us much closer to God IF we let it. I debated on whether or not to share this here with you all, but even in light of all the negative that could be directed towards me or God here, I think this trial may even benfit one or two of you as well as point me further in the right direction. If that is the case then whatever I am asked to endure it will be worth it.

It can also catalyst a departure of faith, which is a shame in one's last short while to live... that kind of uncertainty can affect mentality, and cause a depression that ultimately leaves one worse off.

Above all else, keeping up your spirit is necessary for both potential survival, and for a less pointlessly painful demise.

I 'recently' had a friend survive a 110 MpH car crash where he had a less than 10% chance of making it through the brain surgery alive. The Dreamer sometimes gives us small favors in his games, and sometimes shuts people down for the hell of it...

For your sake, I hope that you interest the Dreamer enough to reap the benefits of his sight.

Right now I am in very good spirits, as this is not the first time I had to look down the barrel of death, I am not frantic over the declining news. However I am not impervious to emotion or pain. While I have made the commitment to keep this particular thread upto date, as things may hit the fan I might become less active in other threads or parts of the website. If for whatever reason I can't post my wife has said she may keep you all updated to one degree or another although I doubt she will get into anything other than my status.

Thank your wife for me, it would be a shame to lose you without knowing. Not knowing the fate of friends and community is... nagging, and worrying.

In the back of my mind I was told 'a candle that burns twice as bright only gets to burn half as long.' Given the context in which I was told that this may be the beginning of the end, or this maybe like the false positive I got on my Aids test.. Who knows, because the Lord gives and the Lord takes away, either way blessed be the name of God.

And the candle wick can be doused by a hand no matter how brightly it burns... it would be a shame for that to happen to you. I wish you the best of this dream's favor Keep up that spirit... and hold that faith dear to your heart.