So a little bit about myself, I was raised to believe that atheists were the "villain" (well sort of) and to me, until recently, atheist was such a disgusting word, because of me growing up with a religious grandmother. I used to believe in god and jesus but after losing my mom and stepdad to a fire when I was five, it was hard to keep a positive attitude towards anything. Gaining depression, PTSD and also having anxiety disorder, social disorder, and psychotic disorder, being positive wasn't anything that I would come across as. But living with a very religious grandmother I turned to god, but not all the way. Slowly over the course of ten years I began to question the authenticity of the bible, god and all that. Again I was raised to believe that atheists were a bad figure, so I wasn't all that happy when I started turning away from god, but the thing is I just described myself as non-religious even though I had very strong opinions about how the bible just is not logical.
I recently started watching a few atheists channels on youtube and seriously these are the type of people I did not expect. I used to have aurguments with my grandmother about religion and she always had to bring up something awful about atheists, and at the end of every aurgument she would say 'well as long as you're not one of those atheists' I knew deep inside that is exactly what I am, and that scared me because of the lies of what an atheist is that were burned into my memory. But when I saw these people they were just normal people opposite to the image everyone else gave me.
My grandmother would probably flip if she found out I was atheist... so what do I do?
I recently started watching a few atheists channels on youtube and seriously these are the type of people I did not expect. I used to have aurguments with my grandmother about religion and she always had to bring up something awful about atheists, and at the end of every aurgument she would say 'well as long as you're not one of those atheists' I knew deep inside that is exactly what I am, and that scared me because of the lies of what an atheist is that were burned into my memory. But when I saw these people they were just normal people opposite to the image everyone else gave me.
My grandmother would probably flip if she found out I was atheist... so what do I do?
