"Very very close to the second coming" again.

[abaris]

I believe my birthday, anniversary work hire date, and work clock number being the gematria of O is an indicator- a confirmation to me of my position as an appointed watchman to alert the sleeping Church and anyone who will listen that the enemy is at the gate and will enter the city.
Some of my friends were "Awakened" within the last couple of years about where we are.
There has never been a time for me when I was not "Watching" in 4 decades.
This is what I was cut out to do.
It is not really a choice I made.
it is like a passion that flows thru me.

If any one else had written this I would have thought of a joke, but you haven't demonstrated a sense of humour so far.

So, since this is obviously serious, I give a serious and heartfelt answer: Got get some professional help as soon as possible.