I recognise how it can feel as betrayal, even if all reasons thereof are cleared by rational thought. And I haven't been in a situation that is anything near to yours. I think you've shown great courage and persistence fighting your way out of this lunacy. These are indeed things with which you have defined yourself in this world. Welcome to reason.
"I'm like a rabbit suddenly trapped, in the blinding headlights of vacuous crap" - Tim Minchin in "Storm"
Christianity is perfect bullshit, christians are not - Purple Rabbit, honouring CS Lewis
Faith is illogical - fr0d0
Christianity is perfect bullshit, christians are not - Purple Rabbit, honouring CS Lewis
Faith is illogical - fr0d0