(March 3, 2015 at 11:04 pm)SteelCurtain Wrote: Man, that sounds like a nightmare. I am so sorry you have to deal with that.
Forgive me if I'm ignorant of your situation, but is it possible to go to a state college? I know JW families tend to be insular, but would it spark any controversy if you went to college and started your life in a way that isn't dependent on your parents? Maybe you can just not tell them? I know that is deceitful, but if it makes all parties happier, it might be an option.
Do you think this girl you love might go with you to college? Can you have serious conversations with her that express your doubts? Would she leave you if she knew it wasn't your choice?
I can completely understand these fears. It is one of the most disgusting parts of religion, that families are ripped apart like this. I am truly sorry.
Oh,
I hope you stick around. You'll find a place to vent here.
I appreciate the warm welcome
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The only solution I can manage to think of is to escape my family before confrontation causes real drama. If I could find an apartment, house (or a tiny house) I could avoid breaking my parents hearts and just leaving... I'm just glad I can talk about how I feel here bottling up my thoughts haven't been good for my health.