Changing is harder than I thought

[Redpandazzz]

I appreciate all the love I've gotten here just on this thread. I've felt so alone going through this for the last couple years without having anybody to talk to. I guess I will have to see what the future holds. I am just appalled at how quick to judge JWs are. I don't know how any parents could remove their own blood from their family simply because that person doesn't believe in someone they have never seen. Even as a child I thought that it was totally ridiculous to sever a bond based on their beliefs. Sucks to have been indoctrinated into it. It's not like I had much of a choice in my life. I was always told "You can do whatever you want but don't expect any help from us", it's like putting a gun to someone's head and saying "You can run but we are going to kill you".