Nihilistic Murderer

[Mudhammam]

If a nihilist is someone who thinks life doesn't matter but they go on living anyway, aren't they like the soft and watered down version of a suicide?

No I don't think so, I think that's a broad misconception. I don't really find nihilism to be depressing. I just find it to be factual. Actually in many ways I also find it to be empowering.

But you do find it meaningful, just not independently of your moment. I take a nihilist to deny even the semblance of meaning, which to me doesn't work since without semblance meaning loses its meaning.