It's good that you tell us.
If it helps I can look at you reproachfully and tell you to stop this nonsense
No, but seriously, I know you'll find the courage to contact a pro in one form or another. I know someone who did cut himself when he was in school. He's perfectly fine now, and you'll be, too.
Can I ask what the mechanism behind it is? What kind of emotional reaction does this type of stimulation facilitate that it becomes addictive? Is it some kind of processing of conflicts? Sorry, I'm curious.
If it helps I can look at you reproachfully and tell you to stop this nonsense

No, but seriously, I know you'll find the courage to contact a pro in one form or another. I know someone who did cut himself when he was in school. He's perfectly fine now, and you'll be, too.
Can I ask what the mechanism behind it is? What kind of emotional reaction does this type of stimulation facilitate that it becomes addictive? Is it some kind of processing of conflicts? Sorry, I'm curious.
The fool hath said in his heart, There is a God. They are corrupt, they have done abominable works, there is none that doeth good.
Psalm 14, KJV revised edition