hi!

[Alysanne]

I was raised Christian my whole life, as an adult I went to church regularly and thought I could make it work. Those Christians can be very supportive as long as you walk their walk. What I noticed though was when my husband left me for a 21 year old secretary, I was shunned. My good Christian friends suddenly didn't want my tainted life corrupting theirs. I got angry, I went through a lot for a few years and I knew I had misplaced my faith. Even though I had come to accept there was no God, I had been living that life for so long I felt guilty saying it or thinking it for some time. It's still hard now, not because I have a problem with it or think there could be a God, but because it seems most people do believe and the minute you mention atheism, they want to convince you there is a God and of how wrong you are. I am comforts with atheism. I even welcome the fact there is no afterlife, hope it really.