(November 17, 2013 at 9:16 pm)katiefranco Wrote: Ever since I officially was deconverted, or as I would say, I deconverted myself, I constantly find remorse in how absolutely, well, ignorant I was as a Christian. I mean, I was way younger (I'm 15.) It's still just, so embarrassing to even think that:
1. I was baptized, barely even knowing why, just thinking "Well if my parents say it's real, I should believe it, blah blah blah."
2. I was persistent to only believe what I was taught in the churches I attended.
3. I was rude to anybody who had different beliefs than me, and tried to explain to me that I was being brainwashed in the most respectful way possible.
(I give those people SO much respect, by the way. If some snotty 8-9 year old rolled their eyes at me when I tried something like this, I might be locked away.)
It's absolutely embarrassing, but I guess slightly humorous. Am I the only one who sort of looks back on the religious version of themselves with disgust?
THat's what indoctrination can do to you.
You close your mind and have no thoughts on other points of view except to mock them, or just close your mind to other perspectives (and yes, I've seen this trait in atheists, too).
You can't go back and change your past, just remember not to become a close-minded atheist, too. Mock when need-be. Question as often as needed. But try to discuss things when possible.
Dying to live, living to die.
