My world is tearing apart

[Aoi Magi]

Hi C&S, I understand your confusion because though from an atheist perspective the answer to your question is obvious, from a believer's standpoint it's not so easy to just accept that answer. Also there are other religions out there who can theoretically give you an explanation because they don't believe in an omniscient, omnipotent god like the abrahamic god. But at the end of it all, no matter which religion you look at, you'll see it is humans who are defending their respective gods instead of it being the other way around, it is man who is coming up with all the explanations be it right or wrong. In most of the world man has made laws such that questioning the religion is to be considered a crime, why would any being more powerful than man, let alone an omniscient omnipotent being, require man's protection?