It is OK to be a messed up kid if your parents are messed up. You will have trouble in life if your dad is an abusive alcoholic. But , at a certain age you have to get over it and take responsibility for your own troubles. Stop blaming mom and dad. If at 25-30 years old you are still blaming them , we call that dysfunctional. Very dysfunctional if you are even blaming grandma and grandpa too. Worse yet, blaming your neighbors ancestors from 1100 A.D. because your life is fucked up.
God thinks it's fun to confuse primates. Larsen's God!