Being aware of my own thoughts more often at the same time as the outside world. Before I was only occasionly aware of my thoughts. Before by default I was aware of my surroundings and only sometimes aware of my thoughts. Now I am automatically aware of my thoughts by habit it seems, and so it allows me to be more aware about the normal processes of thinking I would have previously had without knowing it, in-detail. I think my thoughts may have even be more repetitive than I had thought before I started meditating but I just didn't realize it. But now because I am aware of my thought cycles it allows an extra layer of thinking as I think about thinking more often, and allows me to think about things on a deeper plain than before ( for ME that is, I was never really philosophical at all before. Now it's my number one, primary, main, interest). NOW however, I have trouble being practical and NOT thinking about my thinking so I miss out on more of the obvious stuff and the shallower plains and what's right under my nose in the outside world, and the present moment, I feel.
I used to be very apathetic indeed when it came to philosophy. Now I can't help but monitor every one of my thoughts - I even put philosophy into my every day thinking all the time. Whether I suck at it or not, I like to philosophize if I can.
P.S: I corrected my above post where I said I mediated in an entirely non-secular way. I meant non-religious or indeed secular. I don't do religious meditation lol. Nor do I really follow any method. I just "meditate" in the sense of "ponder on", specifically my own thoughts. Introspection basically. I'm so much more introspective than I used to be, by default I seem to live in introspection but I am aware of this and I don't get carried away in thought cycles.
Anyway hard to explain and I hope the above helped at all convey what the fuck I'm 'on about'.
EvF
I used to be very apathetic indeed when it came to philosophy. Now I can't help but monitor every one of my thoughts - I even put philosophy into my every day thinking all the time. Whether I suck at it or not, I like to philosophize if I can.
P.S: I corrected my above post where I said I mediated in an entirely non-secular way. I meant non-religious or indeed secular. I don't do religious meditation lol. Nor do I really follow any method. I just "meditate" in the sense of "ponder on", specifically my own thoughts. Introspection basically. I'm so much more introspective than I used to be, by default I seem to live in introspection but I am aware of this and I don't get carried away in thought cycles.
Anyway hard to explain and I hope the above helped at all convey what the fuck I'm 'on about'.
EvF
