The need to believe?

[mordant]

Okay, guys, thank youuu. Really. I think lately, I've been all over the place with my feelings. One day, I'm totally resolved. Another day, I'm conflicted. I mean, atheism is a position that actually comes easier to me than religion, tbh. It is a position that makes sense, and it's based on reason and facts. I like how that feels. I'm just trying to manage the rest of it, and find the balance, and I'm getting there. I think that's maybe where this is coming from, the not feeling welcome thing.

I try to be kind and understanding to everyone here, and hope that it's felt.

If you're anywhere under the age of 25, and sometimes aways past that, some of the brain wiring is not complete and can add to the problem. I well remember being young and having (at least relatively, for me) my feelings "all over the place". It gets better, and it strikes me that you're doing a very good job of becoming your best self. :-) You'll be fine.