When in doubt, write what you know. It sounds like you're out to prove some point instead of tell a story that's personal to you. This usually makes for very contrived writing. Some of the world's greatest writers were/are very wild characters in real life. Living is what allows us to write well. More specifically, living through trials and tribulations.
Write the story you're afraid to tell. That usually makes for really good writing.
Write the story you're afraid to tell. That usually makes for really good writing.
If you're frightened of dying, and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. But if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the Earth.
