I think it is hard for us to understand on this side of the pond just how hard it is for American Atheists to "come out". That country really is an ignorant retard, and you have front line troops like Egor desperately scrabbling about trying to maintain that.
You are currently experiencing a lucky and very brief window of awareness, sandwiched in between two periods of timeless and utter nothingness. So why not make the most of it, and stop wasting your life away trying to convince other people that there is something else? The reality is obvious.