My religion lifestory
December 28, 2013 at 8:42 am
(This post was last modified: December 28, 2013 at 10:05 am by SoothSayer.)
Here is my religion experience and life story I'll try to explain everything and keep it as short as I can. (if anyone is interested ... age:20 , location: Croatia, male )
So I was born in roman catholic family , not very orthodox but till the around the high school I wasn't even familiar with concept of atheism since Croatia is pretty traditional country (there aren't many atheists). I was actually quite religious it is nice fairy tale, Christianity. Jesus loves you, he's sacrificed for you, you get to live forever and all that crap.
Later I joined Metal head society (which means praising Satan to screw with religious people and so on) which turned me in agnostic, i was thinking something like God is great but Christians abused his will or something like that ,I know it's weird but isn't everything about believing plus if you are raised religious it's hard to let god go.
After that I started to get interested in Buddhism, thing is I had quite big problems whit anxiety disorder (panic disorder) and meditation helped so that's how I got in touch with Buddhism and thing I liked about Buddhism and I'm not really expert here I only know fragments of it but they are more of teaching of how to deal with life that religion and their perspective on god is that he is irrelevant to us, he might exists but he might not momentarily that fact changes nothing, that was my stance on faith at the moment anyways, I still wasn't ready to deny existence of god completely.
In the end, about two months back I was browsing the internet and found site called Big think where I heard about Lawrence M. Krauss and Richard Dawkins. When I listened to some of their videos I started thinking and really it was like I snapped from dream, and since I'm studding to become engineer you realize that usually easiest solution is the right one.
In other words answer to questions like where is heaven, why are so many Gods trough history, which one is real, why is he hiding... is found in non existence of God, very simple and for someone raised in religious society very hard to comprehend.
For a final word funny thing to me what happened is that when i became atheist anxiety practically disappeared... Well that's it I know it's long story but all I said seamed important and I never had a chance to talk to someone about this so it's load of my chest....
So comment, laugh, attack I accept any kind of response
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So I was born in roman catholic family , not very orthodox but till the around the high school I wasn't even familiar with concept of atheism since Croatia is pretty traditional country (there aren't many atheists). I was actually quite religious it is nice fairy tale, Christianity. Jesus loves you, he's sacrificed for you, you get to live forever and all that crap.
Later I joined Metal head society (which means praising Satan to screw with religious people and so on) which turned me in agnostic, i was thinking something like God is great but Christians abused his will or something like that ,I know it's weird but isn't everything about believing plus if you are raised religious it's hard to let god go.
After that I started to get interested in Buddhism, thing is I had quite big problems whit anxiety disorder (panic disorder) and meditation helped so that's how I got in touch with Buddhism and thing I liked about Buddhism and I'm not really expert here I only know fragments of it but they are more of teaching of how to deal with life that religion and their perspective on god is that he is irrelevant to us, he might exists but he might not momentarily that fact changes nothing, that was my stance on faith at the moment anyways, I still wasn't ready to deny existence of god completely.
In the end, about two months back I was browsing the internet and found site called Big think where I heard about Lawrence M. Krauss and Richard Dawkins. When I listened to some of their videos I started thinking and really it was like I snapped from dream, and since I'm studding to become engineer you realize that usually easiest solution is the right one.
In other words answer to questions like where is heaven, why are so many Gods trough history, which one is real, why is he hiding... is found in non existence of God, very simple and for someone raised in religious society very hard to comprehend.
For a final word funny thing to me what happened is that when i became atheist anxiety practically disappeared... Well that's it I know it's long story but all I said seamed important and I never had a chance to talk to someone about this so it's load of my chest....
So comment, laugh, attack I accept any kind of response
.
