Midlife Crisis?

[robvalue]

Thank you

Yes, I'm probably one of those two. I've increasingly turned to analysing myself as I get older. I've become more aware of how easily I can get things wrong, and how I'm still kind of a mystery even to myself. It's like I'm slowly learning about myself.

The interesting thing is when someone else can tell something about me, before I've realised it myself. I'll often tell them they're wrong. But a bit later, on reflection, I realize they weren't wrong.

Not always, of course. People talk absolute shit too.

[robvalue]

Every time I finish learning about myself, which takes about 10 years, I find out all my data is 10 years out of date. Fuck!

[Jackalope]

You know you're going weird when look at Crocs and wonder whether to buy them?  He he
Saw some feax fur lined croc copies at Aldi and thought, "that's cheap"!
And then a faint voice in my head said "go ahead, lose the last bit of dignity you have left!".

Umm, I'm 48 and I wear Crocs daily.

P.S. Don't buy the fakes, they're shit.

[Faith No More]

My life has felt like one long crisis, so I'm hoping to avoid the mid-life crisis that way.

[Thumpalumpacus]

I think you're right. It's just about how honest we are prepared to be, both with ourselves and our partners. Of course, some couples might just be happy not needing to know anything about it. There's nothing wrong with that.

One reason my son's other and I had such a healthy love life is that we were both open to elements of fantasy being present in our lovemaking -- role-playing, mild BDSM, or even taking a fantasy and living it out IRL.

It's not like I bombard Emma with every little thought that goes through my head, just the ones that turn out to be significant in some way; even if they're not rational. My depression is extremely good at twisting things to try and wreck my life, by isolating me. I have to talk about them, or else they consume me. Once they're out in the open, I can see them for what they are.

Writing is an excellent antidote to that -- as is posting here, I would imagine. It's funny you talk about your depression isolating you. I've found that my alcoholism does the same damned thing; I would eat my feelings when I was drinking, if I wasn't able to post them, because I damned sure wasn't going to share them in real life.

[ErGingerbreadMandude]

I feel old

[LastPoet]

At 35 I take life like a big bowl of salt with a few nuggets of sugar inside. IMHO, its all worth it.

[account_inactive]

I'm 17. Jelly?

[rexbeccarox]

I'll be forty this year. I'm not sure if I'm going through a midlife crisis or if everything's changing outside of my control or both. I think I'll just go with the flow.

[ApeNotKillApe]

I witnessed my mother go through a very destructive mid-life crisis; excessive drinking and drug use, hanging around with all sorts of degenerates, inviting them to stay in our home for days, acting like a rebellious teenager, total disregard for her responsibilities as a parent, she'd disappear for days leaving us without money or food and then stumble back in, and scream at us when she couldn't find anything to eat, became violent on more than one occassion. Got herself arrested, got her car stolen and wrapped around a street light, had the cops raid our home. Fun times.