Happier? . . . well, calmer, certainly. I'm not using up any time trying to telepathically beg god to help me understand so I won't fry forever. I'm starting to see this life as a gift, and not just some precursor to a much better afterlife.
But I feel like an outsider, quite often. (Remember, I live in the Bible Belt, and I play piano/organ for a Catholic Church choir.) I listen to the Bible readings and just want to ask some of the folks "how can you think that story is ok"? I hear absolutely insidious lyrics floating on some of the most beautiful music. I see GOOD people, intelligent people, captains of industry, mindlessly singing this stuff. Sunday we did a song called "Total Devotion", based on the Protestant hymn "Take My Life and Let it Be". The music is lovely, calming, absolutely gorgeous. Total Devotion YouTube link But the words are a prayer to this god to take everything. Everything. Take control. Take my heart, take my will, take my mind, control my behavior, take my money. I'm a Stepford Wife that WOKE UP. What an odd feeling.
(A few lines from "Total Devotion")
But I feel like an outsider, quite often. (Remember, I live in the Bible Belt, and I play piano/organ for a Catholic Church choir.) I listen to the Bible readings and just want to ask some of the folks "how can you think that story is ok"? I hear absolutely insidious lyrics floating on some of the most beautiful music. I see GOOD people, intelligent people, captains of industry, mindlessly singing this stuff. Sunday we did a song called "Total Devotion", based on the Protestant hymn "Take My Life and Let it Be". The music is lovely, calming, absolutely gorgeous. Total Devotion YouTube link But the words are a prayer to this god to take everything. Everything. Take control. Take my heart, take my will, take my mind, control my behavior, take my money. I'm a Stepford Wife that WOKE UP. What an odd feeling.
(A few lines from "Total Devotion")
"The family that prays together...is brainwashing their children."- Albert Einstein
