Happiness level after embracing atheism

[Aegon]

My life was never centered around religion, so leaving Catholicism was a pretty small part of my life. It has no real effect on my psyche because, even though I claim to be an agnostic, it's pretty much fact in my mind that there's no God. Even if I wanted to believe, I wouldn't be able to bring myself to. It just makes so little sense to me now. There being no God or afterlife doesn't bother me. In fact it actually makes life better IMO. If my entire complex existence was all just a test to see if I could get into heaven, that would make everything I do seem trivial. Why not just give my life up to a monastery? What's the point in anything? If I follow the idea that I am my own person not being judged by some supreme being and this is my only life and I need to make it worth it, then that adds so much more value to life. That's how I see it anyway.

That being said, I have struggled with depression in the past, but it was not at all related to whether or not I believed in God. The thought never crossed my mind. It was really a problem with living life itself.