I've had many bouts of depression but am doing quite well now.
I am on anti depressants. They are like a crutch that I use while my mind heals.
Like Rob said, behavioural therapy is the real healing mechanism.
My depression presents itself similarly to others but I react a little differently.
Instead of getting sad I get angry. I loose control of rationality and blow everything out of proportion.
I pick fights with people, mostly those I perceive to be bullies.
Not just bikies and drug dealers but also bosses, police, bodybuilders, you name it.
I'd rather die than back down. I think that's the suicidal element.
Then later after the adrenalin rush is over a realisation comes over me.
I've lost another job, burnt a new bridge, received another charge.
I go from feeling like a superhero to feeling like I cause too much destruction and everybody, including the people I love, would be better off without me.
The birth of my daughter saved me for sure.
I could never leave her behind or let her think that suicide is an exceptable solution.
I've been fairly non-violent for close to five years now.
But the trail of destruction goes back 30 years.
The ability to solve problems non-violently has given me a new life.
I'm so much happier. Having control is infinitely more satisfying.
I wish I could get a hold of young, violent offenders and let them see inside my mind.
Yeah, I'm starting to ramble off now. :-)
I am on anti depressants. They are like a crutch that I use while my mind heals.
Like Rob said, behavioural therapy is the real healing mechanism.
My depression presents itself similarly to others but I react a little differently.
Instead of getting sad I get angry. I loose control of rationality and blow everything out of proportion.
I pick fights with people, mostly those I perceive to be bullies.
Not just bikies and drug dealers but also bosses, police, bodybuilders, you name it.
I'd rather die than back down. I think that's the suicidal element.
Then later after the adrenalin rush is over a realisation comes over me.
I've lost another job, burnt a new bridge, received another charge.
I go from feeling like a superhero to feeling like I cause too much destruction and everybody, including the people I love, would be better off without me.
The birth of my daughter saved me for sure.
I could never leave her behind or let her think that suicide is an exceptable solution.
I've been fairly non-violent for close to five years now.
But the trail of destruction goes back 30 years.
The ability to solve problems non-violently has given me a new life.
I'm so much happier. Having control is infinitely more satisfying.
I wish I could get a hold of young, violent offenders and let them see inside my mind.
Yeah, I'm starting to ramble off now. :-)
