What the fuck even is my life

[Ahriman]

I had a girlfriend who loved me so much, and I treated her like shit, I made her cry so many times, and she was willing to sleep with me tons of times, she never cheated on me, but I abandoned her in pursuit of another girl who was not my type, this other girl was smart and attractive, but not the right girl for me, now the only female in my life is a dachshund, and I love my dachshund very much, but I still wish I had a human female by my side.

[Anomalocaris]

Sounds like a life not worth living.

[Belacqua]

I had a girlfriend who loved me so much, and I treated her like shit, I made her cry so many times, and she was willing to sleep with me tons of times, she never cheated on me, but I abandoned her in pursuit of another girl who was not my type, this other girl was smart and attractive, but not the right girl for me, now the only female in my life is a dachshund, and I love my dachshund very much, but I still wish I had a human female by my side.

How old are you? 

I made big mistakes when I was young. Sometimes I wake up at night and think about how stupid I was. But it was a while ago, and I've had time to do some less stupid things since then. 

Do you think you can try again?

[Rev. Rye]

I hope to Hell you're not fucking the dachshund.

[Ahriman]

I had a girlfriend who loved me so much, and I treated her like shit, I made her cry so many times, and she was willing to sleep with me tons of times, she never cheated on me, but I abandoned her in pursuit of another girl who was not my type, this other girl was smart and attractive, but not the right girl for me, now the only female in my life is a dachshund, and I love my dachshund very much, but I still wish I had a human female by my side.

How old are you? 

I made big mistakes when I was young. Sometimes I wake up at night and think about how stupid I was. But it was a while ago, and I've had time to do some less stupid things since then. 

Do you think you can try again?

Maybe, I don't really care. I'm done trying to have relationships with people, they can't act right. There's no point in interacting with them beyond what's necessary.

[BrianSoddingBoru4]

I had a girlfriend who loved me so much, and I treated her like shit, I made her cry so many times, and she was willing to sleep with me tons of times, she never cheated on me, but I abandoned her in pursuit of another girl who was not my type, this other girl was smart and attractive, but not the right girl for me, now the only female in my life is a dachshund, and I love my dachshund very much, but I still wish I had a human female by my side.

Sounds like you - literally - fucked around and found out.

Boru

[Ahriman]

I had a girlfriend who loved me so much, and I treated her like shit, I made her cry so many times, and she was willing to sleep with me tons of times, she never cheated on me, but I abandoned her in pursuit of another girl who was not my type, this other girl was smart and attractive, but not the right girl for me, now the only female in my life is a dachshund, and I love my dachshund very much, but I still wish I had a human female by my side.

Sounds like you - literally - fucked around and found out.

Boru

I really did. I pay for it every day. But I have to wonder if this continual "paying for it" is justified, I mean, was it really that severe?

[FrustratedFool]

Enough time will likely change things. Life is messy.

[Belacqua]

I really did. I pay for it every day. But I have to wonder if this continual "paying for it" is justified, I mean, was it really that severe?

You're the one torturing you though, right? I mean you're the one making yourself pay. 

I'd rather feel guilty for what I'd done than be someone with no conscience. 

Nobody here knows enough to give you good advice, but I hope that time will lessen the pain.

[Ahriman]

I really did. I pay for it every day. But I have to wonder if this continual "paying for it" is justified, I mean, was it really that severe?

You're the one torturing you though, right? I mean you're the one making yourself pay. 

I'd rather feel guilty for what I'd done than be someone with no conscience. 

Nobody here knows enough to give you good advice, but I hope that time will lessen the pain.

Well I don't have a conscience and I still feel guilty. I know that doesn't make sense. It's like I feel guilty for not having a conscience.