RE: Am I Going To Hell?
August 1, 2015 at 4:47 pm
(This post was last modified: August 1, 2015 at 4:49 pm by Rahul.)
Being raised Southern Baptist and then slowly realizing it was all make believe as I got older the mindset of salvation has seemed more ridiculous the more I think of it.
I was considered "saved" by pretty much everyone who knew me growing up. But I unintentionally committed the sin of thinking too much about my religion and being objective in evaluating the uncomfortable truths about it. As a result, I was no longer able to believe. I didn't want to stop believing, it was just what I found to be the obvious truth.
Other Southern Baptists would now say that I was never saved, ever. But here's the thing. Everyone would say I would be in Heaven right now if I had died at 25 before I started deconverting from my religion. Saying in retrospect, based on my life after that age, that I was never saved, really destroys the ability of other Southern Baptists to know with any level of surety that they are really saved.
If you told me at 25 that when I was 30 I would be an atheist I would have been pretty pissed at you and told you not a chance in hell.
No matter what, I couldn't simply decide to believe in god today. No matter how much I wanted to. I could no better force myself to believe in god than I could force myself to believe I was a squirrel. The facts simply prevent me from believing in absurdities.
If the wages of be incredulous based on the facts that reality shows to you is eternal torment in hellfire then I must find fault with the concept of a supposedly loving God that I was raised to believe in. That would be an extremely sadist way of creating reality for humans. If you are truthful about it (which Christians can't seem to be with themselves about) you have to admit a loving god would simply not do that.
I was considered "saved" by pretty much everyone who knew me growing up. But I unintentionally committed the sin of thinking too much about my religion and being objective in evaluating the uncomfortable truths about it. As a result, I was no longer able to believe. I didn't want to stop believing, it was just what I found to be the obvious truth.
Other Southern Baptists would now say that I was never saved, ever. But here's the thing. Everyone would say I would be in Heaven right now if I had died at 25 before I started deconverting from my religion. Saying in retrospect, based on my life after that age, that I was never saved, really destroys the ability of other Southern Baptists to know with any level of surety that they are really saved.
If you told me at 25 that when I was 30 I would be an atheist I would have been pretty pissed at you and told you not a chance in hell.
No matter what, I couldn't simply decide to believe in god today. No matter how much I wanted to. I could no better force myself to believe in god than I could force myself to believe I was a squirrel. The facts simply prevent me from believing in absurdities.
If the wages of be incredulous based on the facts that reality shows to you is eternal torment in hellfire then I must find fault with the concept of a supposedly loving God that I was raised to believe in. That would be an extremely sadist way of creating reality for humans. If you are truthful about it (which Christians can't seem to be with themselves about) you have to admit a loving god would simply not do that.
Everything I needed to know about life I learned on Dagobah.
