(August 2, 2015 at 9:44 pm)Thena323 Wrote: I still drop by, only because my father isn't well and I don't want him to feel that I've abandoned him. I do love my mother and sister as well, but I had to accept that they are just lost.....so far gone, I can't see them ever coming back . It's sad and very lonely sometimes, but you can't let yourself go down with the ship. We're all going to have to learn to get by without the ones that we love someday.....sometimes it's sooner than we think.
When your family is the most important thing in the world to you, and they always have been;
and when your family always had all the machinery for happiness, but ended up unhappy anyway, and so needlessly,
and when you round that point where you realize they are lost and that all your efforts to save them were for nought,
and when you know they will realize their mistake too late, and then hate themselves,
and you tried but failed to warn them of the coming disaster,
it makes you feel like you'll never be happy again, at least not nearly as much...and it makes you feel like you cannot trust,
and you don't understand, because you tried to do everything they taught you, and sacrifice everything you had,
and they also feel like strangers to you...even though you grew up in the same house, with the same values.
I could accept that I will lose them someday, and even sooner than I might like...
...if only the time that we DID have together wasn't so needlessly destroyed, and was something happy to look back upon.
