Someone told me to kill myself twice today, I don't know why it's been bothering me

[Phosphorescent Panties]

It sounds like you are too sensitive for areas of the internet that allow a large degree of freedom of expression.

I don't really understand it though when you say the worse insults didn't hurt you as emotionally as this insult.  Surely by definition what makes an insult worse than other insults is how much it hurts you?

The only other two variables which would affect how hard the insult hit you I can think of would be how sensitive you were feeling that day, or the tone of voice in which in the insult was said.

As insults go it isn't really bad.  It's common on the internet. It's not personal, like he isn't saying you're overweight, ugly, stupid.  And plus this guy was a stranger I'm assuming from how you told the story.  So a stranger said a none personal thing to you that was obviously either a joke or something he said because he has mental issues either due to being raised badly or some genetic disorder or something.  

Do you even know how old the guy was?  If I heard a joke I didn't get now I wouldn't tell that person to kill themselves but I might have said something like that when I was aged 11 to 15.  I remember the first thing I ever did on a chatroom when I was 11 was private message and american and message him saying "You dickhead" Then when he replied back with "What's your problem man?"  Me and my friend were laughing hysterically with excitement.

Well, the thing is, the way it was presented. I am in a generally safe chat room, a nice place where people a friendly. The person's name was duck juzz, so to give you an idea that they're probably just an immature little boy or something, or someone who has some sort of mental disability. I said this joke and they told me to kill myself, I initially said wow I was just joking. Then I later came back and said I would appreciate if they didn't tell people to kill themselves, which then prompted them to tell me to kill myself again. Something about the complete lack of sense to it all, it didn't just offend me, it depressed me. Here I was, doing absolutely nothing but minding my own business, then this person of whom I have no words to describe my contempt for, says something totally awful to me.

Now, I'm not really sure why that made me feel the way I did, but to describe the feeling, it would be like a part of my brain just going cold. I could feel it inside my head, it became sort of like an uncomfortable cold sensation inside my head, just depression. Unpleasant, unhappiness, at the total lack of control that I have over this person. Anger and contempt are things which I feel very strongly towards people, but I try to be kind because that's all I have to my advantage at that point. So, I'd like to explain deeper how it actually made me feel, but it's hard to explain. I guess I just felt at the time that the person was such a contemptible human being, it filled me with disgust. That's about the extent of what I can explain how I was feeling with words, but to a certain point I'm not sure how to convey the actual physical sensation inside of my brain except with words like disgust.

To add; after the altercation, duck juzz was told by a moderator to shut the hell up, after he told me to kill myself again. He then said that this is the internet and you shouldn't take what other people say seriously. It's just, the pure maliciousness and callousness in which someone can insight on someone else. It just disgusted me on such a deep level, I felt as though my whole brain just seized up with the feeling of contempt for what this person had said to me.