Hello, I need help =(

[Violet]

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I 'need' help too. Lots of help. And luckily I am rich, so I can buy what help I need ^_^

Aerzia says: Hey wage slave! Yes, You there!
Wage slave: wha-?
Aerzia says: take out my trash and I'll drop you a twenty and give you one of these six pizzas!
Wage slave: ALL RIGHT! XD

Sadly, i don't live near the Mexican border

Hi my name is John D. Garcia, im 19 and ive only recently accepted the fact that i am a non-believer if not athiest.

Hello, I am a psychotic individual that wouldn't care how old she is only people make laws based upon age.

I have always been told to believe in god and to be a good person for him because we are his servents.

By whom?

Perhaps the reason i lost my faith (as my friend puts it) is because of the tough life i have been forced to live, and a large number of churches and religions i was forced to participate in or respect. Growing up i was forced along with my sister and cousin to endure sometimes unspeakable atrocities, ive had almost every home, every thing ive owned taken from me more than 7 times i can remember.

Nobody forces you to live that is not named yourself. Death is so easy to manage that one has to deliberately avoid it often enough.

Every atrocity can be spoken of... please explain what type of atrocities you have had to endure And how have you managed to regain your homes so many times if they were continuously taken away from you?

Ive had friends and family betray, beat and rob me.

Hopefully you learned to better pick your friends and avoid your family then?

Ive lived by myself at the ages of 9, 14, and 18(twice abandoned).

Living by yourself at 18 is... kinda expected? Do you live in some strange country where the age of majority is 21 or some such? 0.o I thought arizona was 18 0.o

My dads been in prison my whole life, my mom is a gold digging whore who wants nothing to do wtih me and my sister (who is becoming like her).

What do you mean by 'gold digging'?

To make it all short, ive had a fucked up life and i find the fairy tale of jesus and god very unbelievable. And if there so happens to be a god, and a heaven and hell. I would much rather go to hell because i would atleast understand why the devil would treat me so horribly.

I somehow don't think that religion is even worth the time to concern yourself with...? I'm not sure where you are going with this 0.o

For a long while i had a shred of hope that their was a god and a better place, but after reading some of the bible, listening to people talk about god and how great he is, i realized its all just wishful thinking, i mightaswell believe in the tooth fairy.

Why would you believe in the tooth fairy though? I'm still lost 0.o

After moving from the state of Arizona to California this year, ive finaly found a place i can continue my education and live comfertably without worry, the only thing is, the people i live with are very religous and are under the pretense that i believe in god. I feel trapt and alone because it seems i can't escape religion and i dont want to lose a home again. Should i tell them? or is it better to live a lie, than alone?

You don't need help... as you've gotten out of what is likely a not very fun life, and say you can live comfortably now. Absolutely do not tell them that you are an atheist, it is not to your advantage. Better to live a comfortable lie than to live a depraved and desperate truth.

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TL: DR? Don't tell them that you are an atheist.