Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...

[robvalue]

I can't relate to dishonesty but I do care about you deeply Rob and lies aren't the worst thing in the world. I have no idea the context or what your motivations were  but I know you must have meant no harm You must have been trying to do good with white lies or something? It's okay Rob. Again I wish I could relate I feel like a jerk

I love you big bro.

Thank you little bro, I love you too

I was trying to help someone, in what I considered to be a potentially dangerous situation. In my mind, they not only didn't take my help seriously, or the threat, but they threw it back in my face as well and levelled some very serious accusations at me. I realise now that this isn't what happened. There were a series of very unfortunate misunderstandings.

I was so deeply hurt by this that I could barely function. Against my better judgement, I contacted them again while in this very emotional state. In my mind, I was sticking up for myself after being mistreated. I wasn't telling any lies, I was just laying things out how they were.

After talking it through, the misunderstandings became apparent, and not only that, much of what I said I realised I didn't mean at all. I'd said how I felt about quite a lot of things, and I realised I totally did not feel that way. In my fragile state and being tormented by depression, my world went topsy turvy during this period. Once it was the right way up, I instantly regretted having ever contacted them before calming myself down.

They have been extremely gracious, and from their point of view, it just seemed like I'd lost the plot for about half an hour. I'm calming down and not being so hard on myself now. Looking back now at what I thought had happened, I can understand why I got as upset as I did.