(November 11, 2016 at 3:42 am)Aroura Wrote: I really want to hurt myself right now. Not kill,just hurt. It's a difficult urge to resist. Maybe talking about it will ease the desire.hmmm... nope. You live in one of the best places in the world! How can you be thinking that?
(November 11, 2016 at 3:42 am)Aroura Wrote: I'm a terrible person. I realm am. I'm a bad housekeeper and a bad wife. I fuck up everything. I lose my temper too often. My college degree is from I fucking TT, the one that just shut down for basically being an overpriced pay for an A. I'm stupid, my memory is actually damaged. I'm an utter coward. This isn't fishing for compliments. People who think I'm nice, well yeah I try, but deep down I'm a judgmental bitch. I think horrible thoughts, and I'm afraid of everything.Been there, done that...
meh.
(November 11, 2016 at 3:42 am)Aroura Wrote: I've done ok at staying out of this dark place for a while. Maybe just dipping my toes on now and then. But I am currently paddling around alone.
Clearly something went wrong at some point in time...
Can you think back to that point and try to restore things as they were?
yeah, yeah... bad memory... my memory sucks, too... still, people think I'm smart... poor deluded people -.-'
(November 11, 2016 at 3:42 am)Aroura Wrote: And now im empty. Thanks for reading my emo baby pitty party. Just knowing im needy enough to hit post instead of just deleting this fucked up bitch fest makes me even angrier. I'll probably delete it tomorrow, but for now I need to say it. Like throwing up when you're sick, I needed to purge this poison out.
So, now im empty and going to sleep. I hope.
HAHAHA, now that I've quoted it, it's stuck on the interwebz forever!
(hehe... I'm so evil!)
So... what do you mean by "Nerd Extraordinaire"?