I know that it feels like you couldn't handle a less than healthy baby, but I'm willing to bet you'd surprise yourself.
I can't even imagine going through what you went through. It's every mother's nightmare. My aunt went through the same thing with her daughter. I don't think anyone who hasn't had it happen will ever understand. You seem like you'll make a good mom, though. I don't think this has to stop you. For now, though, I hope you guys are taking care of each other. That's all that matters. You'll make your decision when you're ready.
I can't even imagine going through what you went through. It's every mother's nightmare. My aunt went through the same thing with her daughter. I don't think anyone who hasn't had it happen will ever understand. You seem like you'll make a good mom, though. I don't think this has to stop you. For now, though, I hope you guys are taking care of each other. That's all that matters. You'll make your decision when you're ready.